It was a late Friday evening a few weeks ago, as I giggled and looked up from across the table to ask my boyfriend, “If there was one thing in my closet you’d throw away, what would it be?”
We had decided on a whim to play one of those “how much do you know about your significant other” games just for fun and this question I found particularly silly. He looked up at me with a straight face and said “Your scale.”
…You see, just in September of this year, I did it. The thing I’d heard about, read about, laughed about, thought about, and finally realized I could live without. I’m talking about throwing out the scale, my friends. Okay, I didn’t throw it out, but I shoved it into my utility closet. Outta sight, outta mind.
And you know what? It’s been AWESOME. It’s not like my life has changed drastically, or that I’ve been instantly 100% healed from all issues I’ve ever had with eating (more on that here if you’d like)…but it’s been crucial to recovery both in mind and in spirit.
If I don’t like how I feel after eating, running, drinking, spending time with a friend, etc., a number cannot tell me that I’m fine. It cannot deceive what I know to be true.
If I do like how I feel after an amazing meal, my favorite workout, time with loved ones, and a glass of red wine, a number cannot tell me another story.
The scale can’t tell me which jeans I should wear, how I should eat tomorrow, or where I should go. Weight does not define my happiness and it does not determine my confidence. “It’s just a number” is a phrase I’ve heard all my life. I “knew” it to be true. But it wasn’t until 2017 that I really started living it.
There are plenty of amazing blogs already out in the world written by strong women who have done just this. I’m not reinventing the wheel. I’m not saying this would be helpful for you. We’re all different. All I want to do is share my story, because it took me reading 100 real stories to uncover my subconscious unhealthy relationship with the scale. And if I can be a part of someone else’s 100 stories, then that’s what it’s about. We empower each other towards self healing and self love.
And hey, perhaps I will actually toss the thing in the trash some day. Or maybe I’ll THROW IT ON THE GROUND. Stay tuned and stay true to you. Happy 2018 🙂